How MTMM Changed My Life
Being apart of team MTMM has changed my life. Now that you know that let’s back up so I can tell you the full story.
I reached out to MTMM in March of 2019. I had my first powerlifting competition coming up in June and I really wanted to drop down a weight category. (Because back then all I wanted to do was lean down, have perfect abs, and look like a fitness model) I had my first consult with Maggie Morgan and little did I know that that moment was the beginning of everything. My palms where sweaty, I had a hard time holding eye contact, I felt pangs of anxiety as I was vulnerable and open with my body image and food struggles. As soon as I saw Maggie and heard her speak in such a knowledgeable, kind, and empathic way I knew there was no way I was going to get off that call without hiring her as my nutritionist.
My relationship with food has been difficult since age ten when I started noticing my body change. I started CrossFit at age fifteen and would do 2 CrossFit classes a day well diligently tracking my macros. Making sure I never ate over 1500cals and if I did I would punish myself by rowing, running, or doing burpees. As you can imagine I didn’t get much fitter or lose any weight as my body thought I was starving. I still had the newbie gains on my side and didn’t notice the effect of my under-nourishment until I injured my back. Being on bed rest and low physical activities was hard on my self esteem and even tougher on my body image. My Orthorexia/Anorexia eating disorders took on full time residence in my mind. Anything I felt was a “treat” I would chew and then spit out into the garbage so not to ingest any of the calories. I decided it was time for therapy and started working out again. This was the beginning of the shift. I wanted help.
Fast forward one year exactly and I’m on that first call with Maggie, still talking about wanting to lose weight for my upcoming powerlifting meet. Here is where MTMM begins changing my life. Maggie (in her kind, loving, empathic, and strong way) sends me a template with so much food to eat my mind has a hard time grasping it. (I was eating way under my bodies needs) I start eating more and I PR. I maintain and I PR. So by then I know she’s on to something. I decide to stay in the weight category I’m in (82.5kg) and continue getting stronger and stronger. (We now have 3 CPL nation records and more coming!) As my body begins to change I start panicking again (okay, multiple times I’ve panicked) Maggie has been there for me Every Single Time to remind me what my goal is and what my reason behind doing this is. One of the many things I love about Maggie is her ability to gain trust. I believe respect and trust are gained and as we started working together she never gave up on me. When I had a hard time eating all my food she picked me back up and let me try again. Maggie quickly gained my trust and respect. Maggie has always had my best interests at heart and has never wavered in our goal destination. Now any decision she makes I’m alllllll in.
Since working and forming a relationship with Maggie and Team MTMM my body image has changed dramatically. I look in mirrors and compliment myself. I wear bikinis, and the biggest one of all, I now workout in a sports bra. I can’t describe the level of freedom I feel in my body and the amount of love and pride I have for myself. The care and knowledge Maggie, Ben, and Katrina have for their clients makes us feel safe, heard, and ready to go to the next level. I didn’t believe there was hope in living a life without constantly thinking about food. I can now say I haven’t had an ED tendency in almost 4 months and my relationship with food has never been better. I will forever be grateful.
Zara Nybo